Mother's Day

I love being a mother. My boys give me the greatest joy and I'm thankful for them everyday. I look forward to becoming a mother again - through adoption. :)

I was treated to an amazing Mother's Day meal courtesy of my awesome hubby! Surf and Turf on the front porch with beautiful weather and great company. It was a good time. :)

We have a lot to look forward to in the next couple of weeks and my excitement is getting the best of me.... I will be sure to update when I can. :)

Let there be WHITE....

Our home projects are going well! We've finished painting the nursery white and I'm in luv with it! It's so bright and cheerful in there... Here is the before:

and After:

I also forgot to update our paneled sitting room... the after is quite a change....

Before:

and After:

Where have I been??

I've been a little quiet these past few weeks.  Still excited and hopeful as ever, but, I think I needed a bit of a break. I've been told by so many friends that adoption is like a roller coaster ride. There will be ups and downs... and the hardest part is the wait.

Truth be told, last month was a little tough...
I'm fairly certain that we've suffered an emotional adoption scammer.  Someone who pretends they are pregnant and develops a relationship with you.... tells you they chose you as the adoptive parents...and then you realize it was all a lie. 
I just never thought it would happen to us or that I could be so naive?

Marc and I were aware that this could possibly happen when we decided to pursue adoption without an agency.  I thought I knew all the warning signs... I didn't.  Let me tell you... it hurt... bad.

So, YES, I needed a break.  Some time to rest and pray and move forward.

And here I am. Happy and positive as ever... living by my philosophy that "things happen for reasons" and going with it.
It's funny how great things happen when you least expect it..... :)

Love this....

I came across this poem today and I thought I'd share it here... :)

~ Legacy Of An Adopted Child ~

Once there were two women
Who never knew each other.
One you do not remember,
The other you call mother.

Two different lives
Shaped to make yours one,

One became your guiding star,
The other became your sun.

The first gave you life,
And the second taught you to live it.
And the first gave you a need for love,
And the second was there to give it.

One gave you a nationality.
The other gave you a name.
One gave you the seeds of talent,
The other gave you aim.

One gave you emotions,
The other calmed your fears.
One saw your first sweet smile,
The other dried your tears.

One gave you life,
It was all that she could do.
The other prayed for a child,
And God led her straight to you.

And now you ask me through your tears,
The age old question through the years.
Heredity or environment, Which are you a product of?
Neither, my Darling, Neither,
Just two different kinds of love.

Author Unknown

Feeling a little lost

So, my usual optimistic self is feeling a little lost today. I wouldn't be a truthful person if I didn't express all my emotions on this blog, right? To be honest, I need prayers. So much has been going on lately... it's amazing what can take place in a week.

I've been told that adopting can be like a pregnancy.  The emotions and anticipation are constant...the waiting and not knowing, it's hard to describe. I have total faith and yet, I have this racing feeling in my heart. I'm not quite sure when that will go away...

I write this as I am getting ready for church.  My boys are laughing in the bathroom and Marc is ironing upstairs. Life is good. So, why am I feeling so sad? I actually do know the reason, but, I'm not at liberty to say and it's hard... Wish I could.

Happy Valentine's Day....

So I attempted to make heart shaped pancakes for the boys this morning... and failed miserably. :) Luckily, Marc stepped in and did an awesome job. Who knew? My hubby is a potential Betty Crocker. :) What a fun start to Valentine's day.

the pancakes were a big hit with Cole!

And so it begins...

The wait.  We've finished up our MAPP classes, completed our homestudy, had our fire inspection and now it's just a matter of time. :) Marc and I really enjoyed our classes and we were both a bit bummed they are over.  I tell ya what, MAPP classes teach you a lot about yourself.

So how am I passing the time?  Hmm...have I mentioned I'm a planner?  That's not an easy thing to be when you have no control... no idea when God will bless you with a baby.  I feel I need to prepare in some way and I have to admit that I've started nesting. I can't help it! I love to decorate and I've been brainstorming ideas for the nursery.  Some adoptive parents prefer not to get anything for the baby until the adoption is final... me on the other hand, I plan on having the room and a couple of other things ready.  It helps me channel all this restless energy I get from waiting.... and... it's so fun looking a baby things again.

One thing Marc and I have agreed to start on is painting. I want a bright, white nursery.  I will add in hints of color later. I'm attaching a picture below that is my inspiration... oh, and did I mention, I'm going to try and do this nursery for under $100?? We'll see how that goes. :)